Angel de Monstre

2011-12-13T22:52:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

OMG I'M OLD *O* <==(the scream face)

2011-09-25T20:18:00.002+08:00

I'm back! After a long hiatus...I wonder if anyone is still reading this? Haven't had the time to blog properly recently partly because work is keeping me really busy and also partly because life has been pretty boring after starting work haha

After working for close to 5months(wow time really flies doesn't it?) I've mostly settled into a comfortable routine of work-eat-sleep(repeat mon-fri). And I've been doing a lot of thinking... Work has been mostly enjoyable so far despite the OTs most days of the week(bad thing about the flexible working hours of designers is that we don't get paid for overtime T_T) because I actually like what I do. There are still moments of doubt and frustration when the inspiration just doesn't come and I fall back into paranoia and insecurity and start wondering if I'm just a big fraud who doesn't have a clue how to do my job. But it passes mostly without event. I suppose I'm learning to manage my emotions better, can't always act like a wreck whenever things don't go smoothly after all, suppose its all part and parcel of being an adult.

Sigh I'm really starting to feel old =/ bit early to be getting quarter life crisis isn't it? lol

•••♥•••

Anyway, had my first yoga class today. Didn't know simply stretching can be so exhausting lol arms and shoulders are totally aching right now. But it felt really good! Totally enthusiastic about subsequent lessons now ^_^

Alright, nothing much more to update about my boring life, so I shall sign off and go do my nails now =P

tata~

ahoy mate!

2011-05-21T22:50:00.002+08:00

storywise was pretty typical of the previous installations, enjoyable, entertaining but pretty forgettable. mostly watching it for johnny depp♥. the special effects were pretty good though, all the underwater shots were pretty and i loved the mermaids!(or maybe i just like mermaids in general haha) overall i think it was well worth the $8 ticket, thoroughly entertained throughout the 2hrs.

had dinner at sushi tei with junn after the movie, sashimi+sushi+macha ice cream = yummy yummy yummy♥

♥♥♥

finally gonna get my haircut tmr! heatwave + long thick hair does not a pretty mane make =( the sun has been frying and frizzing out my hair making it more bushy and uncontrollable than usual. gonna try out hair inn (recommended by junn!)

but before that, i'm going to get a new phone! as those who know me is aware, i'm not really a heavy phone user so i usually don't have alot of requirements when getting a new mobile so long as its pretty, not too expensive and preferably a decent camera. it was with this in mind that i got my current phone, and i was pretty happy with it until recently despite the laggy screen and choppy reception since it was really pretty XD

but when it decides to break down, it breaks pretty damn spectacularly =.=''' i don't even know if it can still be called a phone since the main function that makes it a phone, namely making/receiving calls, is totally dead. the other things like camera and messaging still works but its totally silent now, i don't even hear a dialing tone when i make calls =/ and all this within a week!(i last made a successful call last saturday) i guess this is the pitfall of seldom using my phone, didn't realise its already this bad until i tried to make a call today lol

in sharp contrast, my previous phone which mummy is using now, has been in use for about 4years? survived multiple drops on hard ground and still going strong!(albeit with battle scars and missing a button, but its not a critical one so its still usable!) sigh, old phones really are better.

first step into adulthood

2011-05-08T14:05:00.002+08:00

rae is starting work tomorrow! but silly blur little me actually accepted the offer without really knowing the employment details -laughs- so i don't really know what to expect, probably would need to spend my first workday scrutinizing the contract and not working lol

didn't want to announce it on fb for now since before i sign nothing is official yet. would probably post an update tomorrow after everything is in black&white. for now, just a small little announcement here where no one reads =P

work=pay cheque=money=shopping!!!!!!!!!!

2011-04-28T23:30:00.000+08:00

the general elections is a stressful thing when one knows nuts/have zero interest about politics

2011-04-15T13:06:00.002+08:00

clothes, shoes, bag, hair, portfolio, resume, certs, makeup, bus routes, travel times, location, directions, questions, answers and etcetcetc...

interviews are such nerve wrecking affairs =/

2011-02-19T16:20:00.001+08:00

the weather has turned drier, so why aren't mosquito numbers dropping yet?

-scratchscratch- -sweat- X(

2011-02-14T16:02:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's day! ♥~

no valentine in real life, but no harm spreading some virtual love in honour of feb 14. thought i'd draw something cute and break out of the uncreative rut i seem to have fallen in in recent months.

solar power: the other side

2011-02-12T19:54:00.001+08:00

i feel like the sun has been sapping away all my energy these few days x_x

after 2hrs...

2011-02-03T00:52:00.002+08:00

cny nails!

fingers

toes
didn't manage to do much cny shopping this year, so i'm compensating with pretty nails!
don't know if i'll have a chance to show it off though...visiting places still not confirmed at this point in time(1.32am) ~_~

2011-01-08T19:09:00.002+08:00

the recent spate of rainy weather must have been creating lots of mosquito breeding spots, i've been feeling like a gigantic mosquito bite all week! -scratchscratch- -slap!-

♥

2010-12-28T20:54:00.002+08:00

of books, cakes and hair, lots and lots of hair

2010-12-21T12:20:00.004+08:00

caught Rapunzel: A Tangled Tale over the weekend. overall, it proves a satisfactory watch, i do so love fairytales :) pretty disappointed with the music though, the songs just weren't catchy and memorable enough. it used to be just mentioning a movie and a list of songs immediately comes to mind, e.g. the little mermaid - part of your world, under the sea, kiss the girl / beauty and the beast - tale as old as time / cinderella - a dream is a wish your heart makes / sleeping beauty - once upon a dream / pocahontas - colours of the wind etc

but the songs in rapunzel were mostly forgettable, i do like the flower song, but its terribly short, just a verse really =/

oh well, other than that its a fun movie, great rewatch value like all good disney films. something bugs me though, everytime i look at the horse, i keep thinking of james marsden(prince edward) in enchanted for some reason or another lol

♥♥♥

so as stated in my previous post, my 21st birthday was pretty miserable. spent most of the day in bed nursing my poor aching head :( good thing i already got my present on saturday! so i had something to occupy me while i wallow in bed...

i've been reading alot ever since i got this, so much easier reading ebooks on a kindle as compared to a computer screen. only drawback is that the screen isn't backlit, so i can't read in bed at night with the lights off, but then again, that is precisely why it causes less eye fatigue compared to reading on the computer so the con is kind of a pro too -shrugs- can't have everything i guess.

there's a small detail that bugs me though, there's no way to use custom screensavers without jailbreaking the thing. i don't understand why that is, its just custom screensavers right? oh well, doesn't have any effect on the usage, and really the default images aren't too bad, i just have this inexplicable need to personalize all my gadgets(which is why my phone, laptop and ipod all have custom, drawn-by-me wallpapers regardless of how cute some of the defaults are) so it bugs me a little. i'm hoping they'll release an update or smth soon that'll allow that though, so keeping my fingers crossed.

can't really tell from the picture, but this cake is HUGE. i have no idea why, because i've had 1kg cakes before, but this cake is just bigger than usual. i had it everyday for a week straight before managing to finish the damn thing, makes me kind of sick of cake now X( it was pretty yummy though, just a little...much. terribly sinful too, i'm still trying to run the weight off lol

♥♥♥

in keeping with the festive mood and to bring some christmas cheer, i've given myself candy cane nails!

a little messy, but hey i think its pretty good for a first attempt :D

merry christmas everyone!

2010-12-13T11:54:00.003+08:00

am starting off my 21st with a killer headache and heavy limbs

what a great time to be sick =.=

i should just go back to bed now...

tangled

2010-10-30T10:42:00.002+08:00

In cinemas 2 Dec 2010! Still wishing disney would bring back classic 2D animation, what is the point of cartoons if they look so real? Guess I've just got to accept that the time of 2D has passed :( Still, looking forward to catching this in cinemas, everybody needs a dose of fairytale magic once in a while :)

useless trivia of the day

2010-10-15T08:59:00.002+08:00

did you know that the infinity symbol ∞ is called a lemniscate?

Lullaby

2010-09-26T10:12:00.003+08:00

中秋

2010-09-22T10:52:00.001+08:00

happy mid-autumn :)

《散宴》

2010-09-16T11:02:00.003+08:00

从前的自在，现在才发现原来只是个假象

时间冲淡后，总是让一切显得完美

模糊的记忆，让过去的时光蒙着一片虚幻的美好

以往勉强撑起的快乐，如今已无心继续

欢笑喧哗的表现其实只是肤浅的外表，距离虽埋在低下却还一直存在

随着时间让我们逐渐疏远，如今已再也找不回一丝的归属感

或许本来就只是个过客，勉强地想要挤出一个属于自己的位置

直到现在才恍然大悟，其实这个位置从来就没有存在过

就算再多么努力地想要创造，不适合的始终就是不适合

天下无不散之宴席，也许我们已走到了该散宴的时候

the curse of bad skin

2010-09-05T14:31:00.001+08:00

eczema sucks. i feel hideous :(

2010-09-02T16:22:00.003+08:00

i'm losing my words

hiatus

2010-08-19T11:26:00.002+08:00

disengaged

2010-07-26T22:57:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: i'm trying to figure it out myself

listening to: tv noises

i just realised that my ipod's wifi is not screwed up afterall. i've just been using the wrong password all this time =.= damn router for having so many numbers printed all over it and damn ipod for telling me its connected even when i used the wrong password =S

"round, round, round we turn. lose the end and lose the start."

the beginning of the end

2010-07-10T22:24:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: detached/fatigued

listening to: ambient noise

facade

2010-06-25T19:36:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: empty

listening to: -

my ipod's wifi is completely screwed up after the latest software update, and i'm feeling strangely apathetic about it. but then again, it seems like apathy has been my dominant emotion for as long as i can remember.

i don't think i'm ever going to get around to writing a full entry about my trip last month, i'm of the opinion that noone really cares all that much anyway, its not much fun reading about other people's vacation. and i've already kind of yammered all i wanted to the few people that actually read this blog, so i guess there's really no need anymore.

"and when it all comes tumbling down, all you see is smoke and mirrors"

flying giant mutant ants

2010-06-24T13:08:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: freaked out

listening to: Symphony 92.4FM

i think i have a nest of mutated giant flying ants hidden somewhere in my room. they like to fly out at weird times when i'm all alone and then disappear after making me jump. >:(

2010-06-06T19:24:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: irritable

listening to: nothing

still no pics. my head feels like my brain is attempting to burst out of my skull.

return of the cleopatra hair

2010-06-02T23:24:00.004+08:00

location: home

mood: frustrated

listening to: my cursing fb in my head

ok so i know i said i'd blog about my trip soon, but no this post will not be about it because the pictures are still not done =.= i want to upload everything on fb first so that everyone has access to it because i really doubt i'm gonna post all 600+ pictures on here when i blog about it.

have been spending the last 2 days editing and uploading the photos and i swear fb is pissing me off! what is the point of having a bulk uploader if its just going to give me errors everytime i try to upload more than 1 picture? ok screw it sometimes it gives me an error when i'm just uploading 1 picture =.= and well when it does succeed in uploading, it usually takes like half a day, which is why i've spent 2 days and really only less than half of the pics are done(and i've filtered out so many pics too because they just refuse to go up!!!!!!)

gahhhh, enough of that, i'd make sure everything is up by the end of the week(i hope)

now let me blog about my new haircut!

junn wanted to change her hairstyle quite drastically, so she asked me to go try out this salon(chapter 2 @ marina square) her friend recommended with her on monday. and well since i'm going to pay $28 for a haircut, i decided i should do something different too. i've been toying with the idea of chopping my hair shorter anyway because it was getting really unruly and tangly.

i said i wanted to chop off my hair, but really at heart i'm still a long hair lover, so i was actually going to just chop my waist long locks to like maybe just above my elbow, but i guess when i'm sitting down and gesturing kind of vaguely, its easy to be mistaken...it looks pretty ok when he was cutting, but after evening and layering and thinning and everything my hair ended up just a teeny bit below my shoulder. which is really freaking short for me! i think i lopped off about 6-8inches of hair =O

wow come to think of it, the fact that i actually had 6-8inches to cut off and still have my hair remain longer than shoulder length showed just how much hair i had lol i think someone actually almost tripped over my pile of hair in the salon halfway through the cut o_o

well, despite the fact that i ended up with hair a little bit shorter than anticipated, i think i'm actually pretty happy with the end results(it'll grow back anyway, and sooner rather than later considering the speed in which mine grow). the horrible rebonded-over-1-year-ago parts are all snipped off and i actually really like my new bangs(which is weird because its not the first time i'm trying this style and the first time sucked big time. proves than i never learn since i tried it again...but at least it turned out good this time^^)

lets end this post with a picture

or 2 =P

(this is how the bangs look like when the rest is tied up)

home sweet home~♥

2010-05-29T22:40:00.002+08:00

location: my room(oh finally)

mood: fatigued

listening to: air con blasting

i'm backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk! touched down in SG at about 6.10pm, had dinner at the airport and home sweet home~

flew back on the A380 airbus, was pretty excited about it, but the flight wasn't really very enjoyable =/ the whole plane smelled of piss for some reason or another XP, bad ventilation in the toilets maybe? and the weather must have been horrible for flying because the turbulence was insane! just my luck to get stuck in the worst turbulence i've ever experienced while on a long haul 13hr flight =.= thank god for motion sickness pills, i think i wanna hug the person who invented it.

♥♥♥

i've been away for the last 2 weeks, so am feeling a little out of touch with things in SG now. though it doesn't really bother me, i've had a pretty boring life here...honestly, the only thing i missed while i was away was(definitely not the weather) just being surrounded by my own stuff, so if i only could just lug all my stuff with me, i'll be all set lol

anyway, i think i'd better go to bed soon, airplanes = not conducive for resting. look out for a mega long post sometime this few days about my 2weeks long holiday, just let me sort and edit all the pictures first!

tata~

2010-05-17T00:58:00.003+08:00

Location: sis's home in london
Mood: relaxed
Listening to: falling rain

Greetings from London! Touched down yesterday @ 3pm London time, which is 10pm SG time(it was a 13hr flight not 16hrs as mentioned in the previous post, mistake). The flight was pretty alright if u discount the very limited leg room typical of economy class lol tried my best but if was just impossible to sleep properly on the plane so last night was spent mostly in a haze of exhaustion. Sis and peter took us to this great Chinese restaurant for dinner(had lobster noodle! Yummy~) people actually have dinner quite late over here, at about 8pm but it doesn't really feel that late to me because it's nearing summer now and the sun sets really late at 8+pm haha

The food was really good, but because I was practically dead on my feet(it was about sg 3am when we started eating) so it was hard to work up an appetite. Went home after dinner and promptly passed right out till this morning. I suppose it's a good thing to get that exhausted yesterday since now I have an easier time adjusting to the time difference here.

Went out to some places around London today but I think I'll blog about those when I get back and can complement the post with pictures. It's also a little hard to type too long since I'm doing this on my iPod now haha

One great thing about being here is that the weather now is beautiful! (when it's not raining anyway) some people might find it too dull and gray since it's overcast most of the time but I quite like it since I never liked the sun too much anyway lol it's pretty cold especially since I'm coming from the horrible heatwave in sg but it's a nice escape from the hot humidity of sg and seriously the cold is doing wonders for my skin lol

Tomorrow would be spent shopping at harrods and then Tuesday through thursday we'd be in Paris! Sis took next week off work so she'd bring us around to some other nearby towns =D exciting!!

impending doom

2010-05-13T20:22:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: excited

listening to: Devotchka

my dear old lappy has been sparodically showing me the blue screen of death lately. i fear that the end might be near... =/

♥♥♥

on a happier note, i've been spending the last couple of days packing my luggage for the imminent europe trip! clothes shopping has been a nightmare though, the season is totally wrong to be shopping for cold weather clothes(the constant humid heat isn't too helpful for the mood either) in the end i just decided to bring lots of layers and just bundle up like a huge dumpling =.= totally gave up shopping for a warm jacket since the choices are so limited(again wrong season) and the few choices i have are seriously out of my budget. so i guess i'll have to make do with lots of layers and this one sort of ok jacket that i dug out and have no idea who it belongs to lol

i bought new shoes to bring on my trip! am so relived to finally find some nice comfy, easy to match and pretty shoes to bring along, i was afraid that i would have no choice but to bring my old flats over and i really don't want to coz its not exactly the most comfortable thing and its also about ready to fall apart. so i'm feeling pretty good about my most recent purchase =D

i'm also dying to break out my new sunnies, but i'm not too sure how much action they'll be seeing on this trip, since london doesn't really bring to mind sunny skies...but i guess they'll be useful in masking my very probable unkempt appearance when i get off the plane(16hr flight! omfg)

going to spend tomorrow gathering up stuff and doing some last minute packing and then its off into the air first thing sat morning~ hopefully i'll be able to catch some sleep on the plane so i won't be too jet lagged when we touch down...

when all else fails, get yourself some chocolate

2010-05-07T22:18:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: chocolate induced high

listening to: -

i know this is getting really old and repetitive, but i can't concentrate on anything else if i don't get it out. I REALLY REALLY HATE THE FREAKING WEATHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ahhh that feels so much better...ok not really because the weather hasn't changed =S the heat has been getting really annoying, i can't sleep properly because i keep sweating even though i have my fan on full blast and pointing straight at me and i can't on the air con because sleeping in an air con room makes my skin peel and nose blocked. and i can't go out in the day because the heat makes my skin red and blotchy and my hair looks like a haystack and i keep sweating like a pig and sweat makes me itch all over and occasionally break out in rash and the really bright sun gives me migraines.

in short, i'm just absolutely miserable.

♥♥♥abrupt topic change♥♥♥

i made french toast for breakfast today! ok more like brunch because i didn't get out of bed till noon. and i only did because my room was literally radiating heat and i was just about to get cooked =.=

so yea, french toast! it was a little oily and i really wished i had maple syrup at home so i didn't have to sprinkle sugar all over and i only had 2 pieces of bread left but all in all i thought it wasn't too shabby for a first attempt! i'm not totally hopeless in the kitchen afterall!

the long list of things i can cook now includes:

instant noodles
rice(so what if it only involves pressing a button on the rice cooker? its still cooking!)
fried rice
omelets
french toast

see! isn't that impressive? (yes i am being sarcastic) oh and i can boil water too!

-awkward silence-

ok enough about my kitchen abilities. i'm flying off to london on the 15th! i assume everything is good to go since the volcano stuff hasn't been on the news recently. and i really really really need to go shopping! my wardrobe is totally not 10ºC weather friendly.

♥♥♥another abrupt topic change♥♥♥

so these past 2 days i've been busy living in denial and blocking out the last 2 weeks especially my lack of studying(honestly? i've spent about all of 4 days studying for 4 papers. yea 1 day each with long breaks in between. i am soooooo screwed) and horrendously screwed up exams(yes, i repeat, totally screwed). and i shall continue blocking out these traumatizing memories until i have to face them when results come out. so yea end of topic.

♥♥♥another abrupt topic change♥♥♥

i'm currently pigging out with a packet of cadbury and basically feeling myself spread horizontally into a lump of fat and totally not caring since the heat is making me ugly anyway lol

mummy is buying me macs breakfast tomorrow! yummy♥ no i don't care that its greasy and unhealthy and fattening and totally an "inferior product"(damn random economics term).

now to continue in the theme of this entry, i shall

-end post abruptly-

the perils of laziness

2010-05-04T23:53:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: cranky/sleepy

listening to: KT Tunstall

stay up to finish studying and risk falling asleep during the paper
or
give up studying and go to sleep and not know how to do the paper

talk about a lose-lose situation =.=

so much for procrastination

2010-05-03T00:15:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: frazzled

listening to: paramore

rae is this close to campaigning for a lawless society. bah who needs legislations

-daydream about chucking law textbook out the window-

-starts stressing about management accounting paper on weds(which is still not studied for btw)-

last2last2last2last2

-bangs head on textbooks and hope that information will miraculously get knocked into brain-

2010-05-01T22:45:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: -

listening to: whirling fan

i think that i might be OCD.

the object of my obsessive behavior?

screwing myself up. how quaint.

avoidance

2010-04-24T16:22:00.004+08:00

location: home

mood: denial

listening to: ipod on shuffle

mummy helped me chase this stupid insect that has been hiding in my room and terrorizing me for months out the window just now. good riddance you stupid unknown huge blue twitchy noisy rattling flying thingy! i have no idea where you crawled in from since i never open my bedroom window but don't you dare come back, i swear i'll squish you no matter how gross it'll be if i ever see you again!

*ahem*

so, i spent the early afternoon being chased around my own room by the damn unknown flying object mentioned above before it finally got chased out of my room. spent late afternoon trying to force down lunch and for some reason(read: doing anything to avoid studying) watching air force one on channel 5

and now...i'm going to go find something else useless to waste my time with and continue avoiding my notes!

tata~

2010-04-22T15:39:00.001+08:00

location: home

mood: hopeless

listening to: Vincent - Don McLean

my ipod is out of memory =(

ash clouds & sour notes

2010-04-18T14:11:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: sullen

listening to: voices i really don't want to hear

following the recent trend of freak natural oddities, a volcano that has been dormant for 200years suddenly erupted and sent this huge poof of ash cloud into the sky cutting off airplanes and threatening the vacation plans of people all over the world...including my mid-may europe trip =S

so yea, europe trip is in kind of a precarious state now, might not be able to go as planned if the cloud doesn't dissipate by then. sigh. i just knew it, something always always always happens just when you start to anticipate something

♥♥♥

on another sour note(yes, there has been a distinct lack of sweet notes in my life recently), nevermind, i'll just drive myself into an even more sullen mood if i continue going on about sour notes.

considering there is nothing but sour notes in my foreseeable future, i'd say its time to end this drivel.

tata~

lost

2010-04-17T02:31:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: lost

listening to: silence

I'm lost in the labyrinth of life

wandering by in search of light

round and round I turn blindly by

helplessly lost, I'm losing sight

"Where are you going?" I ask myself

stumbling about with no path in mind

passage of time stretches on and on

I lose myself on a lonely path

sporty rae = inconceivable

2010-04-12T23:01:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: sick

listening to: 98.7FM

so i decided to go for a run this evening while avoiding hitting the books. ended up being sick all over my front door. and then i promptly passed my sweaty half undressed self out on the bed. classy. guess i severely misjudged my level of fitness, or rather un-fitness. or maybe the banana i had just before going down was just a bad idea. anyway, i think its time to retire my nikes, not that they've been working hard or very often or even very long at all. guess the tummy is here to stay. oh well, can't say i didn't try -shrugs-

p.s. i'm still feeling like shit now 5hrs later. i'm not really that unfit am i? or maybe i'm really sick? i've been stuck in this shitty state for so long now i can't even tell anymore

the beginning of the end

2010-04-09T00:42:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: depressed(as usual)

listening to: -nil-

junn and i caught How To Train Your Dragon tuesday night(the movie was fantastic btw). wanted to meet up with the whole hjsmxw gang for waffles at first, but alas, now that we're all adults with various responsibilities(mostly anyway) our clashing schedules wasn't very cooperative =(

anyway while watching trailers before the movie started, junn and i realised that there is a really excessive amount of movies with various animal leads(real or cgi both) and we were wondering why that is. the first few were cute i suppose if u like those sort of things but really after awhile it all starts to look the same. how many stories can you come up with about a pet dog's life anyway?

i usually like sitting through movie trailers, i have fun picking out those i'd want to watch next time. but seriously, the movies nowadays are all starting to become either one big blur of similar plots or a worn out franchise trying desperately to extend its shelf life by bombarding the audiences with gratuitous technology. and for once, not one single trailer caught my attention and made me want to plan my next trip to the cinema.

ok that last line suddenly reminds me of this anti piracy advert they keep playing in the cinema about this young boy asking his father what is a movie because the industry is dead in the future after piracy ruined it. but honestly, i think the bad films are ruining it all by themselves. people wouldn't mind paying for a ticket if the film is actually worth the time taken to watch it. and of course the forever increasing ticket price is pretty off putting too(especially 3D tickets when the movie doesn't even need it).

so for now, nothing is catching my interest just yet. next on my to-watch list is rapunzel, which is really sad because the release date is currently still TBA(ok yahoo movies is listing it as 2dec2010, which is still a long way all the same, but i'm used to last min delays, remember coraline and the april to november move?) guess i won't be visiting the cinema anytime soon =(

2010-04-03T21:38:00.000+08:00

location: home
mood: insignificant
listening to: tv in the background

trapped in routine monotony
desperate for a whiff of vibrancy
retreat into mind's deep abyss
building castles in the sky

occasional jolts of reality
send one crashing into inferiority
refusing to open thy eyes
obstinately holding on to flimsy dreams

if only the bubble holds
forever submerged in mirage's beautiful folds
never breaking hallucinated bliss
wake to drown in inadequacy

wacky dreams

2010-03-31T11:50:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: confounded

listening to: birds chirping outside my window

oh i swear i have the most ridiculous dreams. but they sure are entertaining regardless of how disturbing the content is. school excursions to the cemetery, a kidnapping ghost, head bashing on the balcony that inexplicably leads to a lifetime ban on tea, rogue half-smashed eyeballs(from the balcony head bashing) and super multiplying worms in the bathroom. oh the stuff my unconscious brain comes up with! i wish there was a way to mentally record and playback my dreams so that the details wouldn't grow so fuzzy the moment i wake up, maybe with repeat viewings i'd finally be able to make a little more sense of what my head is trying to tell me?

♥

2010-03-28T21:22:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: dreamy

listening to: a fine frenzy

The paths have been crossed

The crumbs are gone and the way, and the way is lost

Melancholy phantoms eye our skins

And poisoned apples falling with the wind

Hear the sigh of the trees

Those who enter here never leave

And the rangers stream out of their cabins

They are the hunters, we are the rabbits

And maybe we don't wanna be found

Maybe we don't wanna be found

Further in the hole we go

Saddest creatures tugging at our clothes

Cutting through the twilight, sword in hand

Strangers once united against the land

At the sound of the bells

They're pulling paper lanterns from their shelves

And the rangers stream out of their cabins

They are the hunters, we are the rabbits

And maybe we don't wanna be found

Maybe we don't want you tracking us down

The rangers stream out of their cabins

Raising their muskets, flashing their badges

But maybe we don't wanna be found

Maybe we don't wanna be found

Let's keep hiding, all quiet like

They'll keep seeking but they won't find us

Let's keep living a quiet life

You and I, you and I

And the rangers stream out of their cabins

They are the hunters, we are the rabbits

And maybe we don't wanna be found

Maybe we don't want you tracking us down

The rangers stream out of their cabins

Raising their muskets, flashing their badges

Well, maybe we don't wanna be found

Maybe we don't wanna be found

mood

2010-03-28T17:52:00.000+08:00

will you, won't you, will you, won't you?

2010-03-23T00:15:00.004+08:00

location: home

mood: weird

listening to: the lobster quadrille

"Will you walk a little faster?"

Said a whiting to a snail,

"There's a porpoise close behind us,

And he's treading on my tail.

See how eagerly the lobsters

And the turtles all advance!

They are waiting on the shingle -

Will you come and join the dance?

Will you, won't you, will you,

Won't you, will you join the dance?

Will you, won't you, will you,

Won't you, won't you join the dance?"

"You can really have notion

How delightful it will be

When they take us up and throw us,

With the lobsters, out to sea!"

But the snail replied, "Too far, too far!"

And gave a look askance -

Said he thanked the whiting kindly,

But he would not join the dance.

Would not, could not, would not,

Could not, would not join the dance.

Would not, could not, would not,

Could not, could not join the dance.

"What matters it how far we go?"

His scaly friend replied,

"There is another shore, you know,

Upon the other side.

The further off from England

The nearer is to France -

Then turn not pale, beloved snail,

But come and join the dance."

"Will you, won't you, will you,

Won't you, will you join the dance?

Will you, won't you, will you,

Won't you, won't you join the dance?"

i love this song! its just totally weird and alice in wonderland-esque. sadly i didn't think much of most of the rest of the soundtrack, sure some of them are nice and radio friendly, but as a whole the soundtrack just doesn't really seem to fit the feel of the story(probably why none of them is actually featured in the movie =.='' really why call it a movie soundtrack if the songs are not actually in the movie?)

another song i like on the soundtrack is "Very Good Advice", though i'm not too sure i like the vocal much, but the music is really cool in a quirky weird way, i would have loved it as an instrumental piece.

2010-03-20T23:39:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: sleepy

listening to: sound of my own typing

the weather has been unusually cold and rainy lately, especially jarring after the recent heatwave/dry spell that caused many a forest(or really just large fields of dead grass) fires to break out. the change is welcomed though, i'm enjoying the cool respite from the blistering heat of last couple weeks even if the dramatic change is making my sinus worse and my nose attempting to migrate off my face.

despite enjoying the cool temperature, i really wish it wasn't so rainy all the time. wet shoes+feet is really gross, not to mention the wet clothes joining in the party when the downpour is especially heavy(thankfully it has not happened thus far). and i'm really having trouble forcing myself to school each day, especially when my cool bed and warm blanket feels oh so very very good =/

♥♥♥

went to collect my new passport today. dammit, i still cannot escape ugly passport photos :( why oh why is my face so resolutely un-photogenic?

childish

2010-03-19T21:01:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: resigned

listening to: whirling fan

without my notice, this blog has silently existed for 5 years now. if not for rereading the very first entry posted here, i wouldn't have remembered that this is actually my second first blog haha, the first one is long gone, lost in the big scary land of digital footprints(i vaguely remember deleting it to get rid of my embarrassing childish ramblings). of course now that i've grown a little more knowledgeable about blog maintenance(mainly my ability to now hide archives and change url without creating a whole new blog) i guess this page is here to stay until i outgrow this hobby.

looking at the older posts as compared to now, i'm struck by how little i have grown. other than refining my language(how did i ever think that writing like a retarded moron was cute? thank god i've never had the urge to type in alternate caps however cool it was back in the day, i thought it was too much work, i've never been more glad of my lazy tendencies), i'm still harping on the same old issues.

and whats worse, i realise i repeat this process every couple of years. i'll look at old entries(started with good old diaries before moving on to blogs) and whine about how childish i sounded not too long ago. just like what i'm doing now! and even after realising my predictable and honestly useless habits, i still get the urge to reiterate how i'm still stuck as a whiny, screwed up, self-centered idiot.

you don't get any more pathetic than this.

the irony of the lonely hermit

2010-03-13T20:44:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: conflicted

listening to: chaos in my mind

i've been stuck in a perpetually miserable mood of late, not that its terribly unusual of me, but this bout seems stronger than usual. or perhaps the years of wallowing has just wore me down and made me weary? i'm not entirely sure exactly what i'm so fixated on, in fact i've been trying to figure myself out for far too long, its a sad day when you realise you do not understand your own mind.

it has been said that sometimes loneliness can make someone feel alone in the middle of a crowd, but have you ever felt so detached that even in your own mind it feels like you're looking through someone else's eye? it is worse than feeling alone, because even alone, you are still you. what else is left, when identity itself feels unsure?

there is this ache i cannot explain, a pulsing throb that keeps demanding my attention, distracting me from everything else. it keeps filling me with longing, looking for something just out of reach. but what exactly is this thing i seek? sometimes i think i have it all figured out, but then i'd suddenly feel like its all wrong.

how can i long for companionship, when all i want is to be left alone? isolation is a double-edged sword, soothing it can be, but be sure not to be smothered by it as well.

2010-03-08T00:53:00.001+08:00

location: home

mood: melancholy

listening to: -

what does it feel like, to smile and actually mean it?

off with your head!

2010-03-07T00:14:00.004+08:00

location: home

mood: pensive

listening to: -

just came back from watching alice in wonderland! i'm actually pretty disappointed, maybe there has been too much hype surrounding the movie and raised too much expectations. it's fantastic visually, the sets are beautiful, but then again which tim burton movie isn't? but somehow the story just seems to fall short. though i must say, helena bonham carter is spectacular, just what i imagine the red queen to be like! and really, how can i not like the character that enjoys lopping off heads so much? ♥

2010-03-05T18:24:00.002+08:00

location: home
mood: morbid
listening to: sweet dreams

this video is completely freaky. it kind of reminds me of the zombie/monster thingy in rec that completely scared me. i'll probably get nightmares if i watch it too many times.

i like it. =)

madness

2010-03-04T19:08:00.001+08:00

location: home

mood: -

listening to: -

yesyesyesyesyesyesyesyesyes its here!

2010-03-03T22:24:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: normal?

listening to: nothing

met hjs for dinner last night. mx was supposed to join us too but she fell asleep haha we didn't really stay for long anyway, just ate and chatted for a little while. it sucks trying to catch up when we no longer share the same schedule and nobody is ever free at the same time. we ate at cartel, and i've no idea if the standard has really dropped or is it just because i just ordered the wrong thing coz i'm not very familiar with the menu since i rarely eat there except for breakfast, but the food really sucked XP and for some reason or another i kept dropping things all night, so much so that i was afraid to hold my my glass to drink in case i pour everything down my shirt =S

i've been missing more school than i can really afford to lately, but i just can't bring myself to care very much. i'm so tired, so tired all the time i can't even muster the energy to be worried. sigh.

i've been having really sick dreams too, skull stabbings, eyeball gouging, creepy little girls trying to push me off stairs etc. thank god its not the bloody fingers/ice cube/mob boss dream again, that one really kind of freaked me out. i really wonder how in the world my subconscious come up with all these. going to sleep is like immersing myself in one long senseless horror movie sometimes.

and oh the weather is killing me. i think the field near my house actually went up in flames earlier in the afternoon.

2010-02-28T22:51:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: really fucking annoyed

listening to: ireallycannotsayitwithoutvomitingblood

why do you always fucking assume that you know everything? are all of us fucking idiots to you? do you have to always be so fucking untrusting and obnoxious? why do you always assume that everyone is fucking out to get you? why do you like to place blame so much? why do you think that everybody is freaking stupid and that you are oh so all knowing? why can't you just be fucking appreciative for once and stop questioning every single effing thing? why the hell do you annoy me so? technically i'm not even involved in this whole argument. but you just have to drag everyone in don't you? because we're all simple-minded naive idiots right? we don't know any better right? honestly i don't know why anyone still bothers trying to reason with you after all this time. its not like we haven't listened to you sprout the same paranoid shit over and over again over god knows how many years. frankly i'm amazed with your ability to always link seemingly totally unrelated topics together and always get to the same fucking point that we're all stupid idiots. no matter what the matter at hand is. it always always always comes down to the same fucking point. and honestly i'm sick of hearing it which is why i've already given up on having any kind of conversation with you. it always end the same way anyway. but for some unknown reasons others still attempt to drill reason into your clearly fucking unshakable, deep-rooted views so i'm still forced to listen and be quietly annoyed by myself. i wish you can listen to yourself before you start lecturing others about tone and respect, because clearly you do not practice what you preach. i wonder if you even fucking realise it.

and now i'm annoyed by myself for actually wasting my time and sullying my blog with so much vulgarities by typing this whole chunk of shit when you're never going to read it(and you will not realise its about you even if by some miracle you actually do read it because you probably think you're so abso-fucking-lutely right and there is no way this could actually refer to you).

and it all blows up

2010-02-24T01:38:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: so freaking distressed i'm laughing

listening to: snoring

"I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad

The dreams in which I'm dying are the best I ever had" - Mad World

more stealing from song lyrics. pretty self explanatory.

out.

chronic fatigue syndrome

2010-02-23T22:05:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: tired

listening to: cacophony of too loud tv and radio

i'm exhausted. oh so very very exhausted.

cupcake frosting ♥

2010-02-22T21:29:00.004+08:00

location: home
mood: cautious
listening to: background noises

swinging like a pendulum
up, down, up, down

peeking from behind the shell

testing, tasting, stepping, tipping

hidden gem uncovered by chance

coaxing smiles and lightening heart

pray for joy that stay and lasts

make a wish upon a star

♥♥♥

2010-02-22T13:09:00.005+08:00

location: lecture theater
mood: confused
listening to: chattering

I still couldn't do it in the end. Is that a good thing? I don't know anything anymore.

maniacal

2010-02-20T14:11:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: frenzied

listening to: voices in my head

flurry, blurry, frenzy

running round in panic

crazy, loony, floozy

screeching like a banshee

frightful dance, twisted limbs

jerky spins, crash and slip

frantic jumps and soaring leaps

painful wail ends in bloody heap

red packets and demigods

2010-02-15T23:56:00.004+08:00

location: home

mood: sian

listening to: -

first day of cny was alright, spent the whole day in the west visiting. cck in the early afternoon and bt. panjang in the evening(why oh why do all my relatives stay on the other side of the country?). the whole ordeal was ok i guess, not as bad as i expected. no excessive questions about school, was able to actually kind of hold conversations, no one bothered me too much, little nephew was entertaining and didn't have to see annoying little cousins. perfect! oh and not to mention going home with tons of food(so so so so growing fat)

didn't manage to do any new year shopping so i did end up wearing the floral dress that i never wore because i think i look fat in it. it was alright i guess, sis thinks its pretty, so maybe i don't look that fat(hopefully?)

anyway, got all the visiting done on the first day so i'm free! 2nd day is great because i went out just as annoying little cousins were coming in so i didn't have to endure their company! yay! got ang pow but didn't have to be around them, best of both worlds ^^

met up with junn and her friend gt(the one in the same course as me in SIM) so we can actually recognise each other in lectures from now on. maybe now i'll finally have a friend in school?

caught percy jackson & the lightning thief, it was pretty funny, but plotwise was a little thin(but hey it is adapted from a children's book afterall). i'm pretty sure i would have thought the movie sucks if i read and liked the books first haha. but anyway it was good enough that i'm interested to read the books now, so not a total waste of time. not a must-watch, but definitely good enough for some entertainment.

2010-02-13T19:48:00.005+08:00

location: home

mood: lethargic

listening to: everyone else

plastic faces, smoke and mirrors

fake smiles in place, silent tears rage

curtains fall but facade remains

day by day, lights are dimming, fire diminishing

weak hope crumbles, creeping coldness

blank and empty, hollow apathy

failure to muster, plastic melting

the time has come, white flag rises

random

2010-02-06T22:00:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: blank

listening to: mr brightside

"Heaven's not a place that you go when you die,

It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive" - The Tide

i'm stealing from songs because i'm having a word drought and i really don't know what i want to say. the line just sounded nice i guess.

♥♥♥

my desktop is dead. i don't really care since i don't use it anymore. but it gets pretty annoying when everyone kind of just expect me to know whats wrong and fix it. when will everyone realise that web design != computer repair? sigh. whatever. i think we're replacing it because i sure as hell is not able to fix it.

i just realised recently that cny is actually next week. and i haven't done any shopping. none. zilch. zero. sigh. this is the most un-festive cny ever. at least i have my cute betty boop pjs sis bought me from london last year that i've been saving for new year lol

i had an epiphany recently. i decided that i really really dislike guys with dimples. and clefted chins. i don't care how many people think these features are cute, i just don't like them. yea totally random i know, but i just felt like saying it.

i am still annoyed by all the people who use that when writing about people. and there are alot of them. i'm pretty sure you're supposed to use who right? like "xx is an idiot who totally deserves a slap" and not "xx is an idiot that totally deserves a slap" right? i was so sure that i'm right but i've been seeing the latter everywhere! have i actually been the wrong one all this time? i don't think so. but why are so many people doing this? i'm really really annoyed when i'm reading this great piece of writing and all of a sudden this pops up. -screamsinfrustration- ok i realise my example sentence is pretty awkward and the who/that/whatever can probably be replaced by better words to make it flow better but i can't think of anything else right now and you get the idea. right? i don't think anyone actually care if the last paragraph made any sense. i know i don't. i just wanted to vent somewhere. heck if anyone understands or give a damn what i'm writing.

i had half a spring chicken for dinner today. yums. i love fried chicken skin, totally sinful and gross but i do. and i don't care because i lost 1kg and that warrants a celebration. and i really need to start exercising soon so i can stop skipping lunch to keep the weight off. and maybe hopefully shave off like 3-5 more kg.

ok enough randomness. i'm going back to wallow in my pathetic-ness and wasting time doing useless stuff.

tata~

confounding

2010-01-31T15:45:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: wistful

listening to: paramore

pondering the irrational fears

images of my dream floats crimson

trying to decipher

hopelessly obsessed

distractions set the stage from which i fall

hell

2010-01-29T13:49:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood:

listening to: -

ughhh apparently durians are having some kind of major sale right now because my fridge is choked full with about 5boxes of it. omg the stink

lethargy

2010-01-24T19:49:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: sulky

listening to: rockstar

counting down, less than a month to cny. time is really running out =( and i haven't done any shopping at all. don't know why but i'm just not getting in the mood this year. tried to go shopping with junn yesterday but wasn't very fruitful. i did manage to buy a really cute mini skirt but i don't really think its very cny-ish (grey/black polka dots isn't really very festive). i guess i can wear that flowery dress i bought a while ago and didn't wear coz i realise it makes me look really fat(hmm on second thoughts not a very good idea), it looks real new year-ish red flowers all over and all. and i guess i can get away with new pjs(tank and shorts) on day 1 since i'm pretty sure we're hosting this year -dreads-

enough about new year, its less than 2 weeks to sis's birthday and i haven't had a chance to get anything what with my no shopping mood lately. i haven't even gotten her christmas present for last year =/ i'm a terrible sister. sigh. maybe i'll drag up the energy to go shopping one of the days after school next week. sigh, school. i've a feeling this sem is going to the dogs already, and i haven't even started all my classes yet. i'm really having problems focusing lately. all i seem to want to do is lie in bed and turn to mush -sighs some more-

losing touch

2010-01-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

location: home

mood: distracted

listening to: 气球

hiding in my bubble frail

barricading against rough life real

submerged in my fantastical dream

cocooned warm with safe mirage

of painful reality i let lose

wrapped up in whimsical tales

content in isolation i lay

surrounded by flames flaring bright

watchful eyes track my path

grasping straws with flailing limbs

aghast as strength lethargy claims

contemplative of healing unsure

scatterbrain

2010-01-21T21:04:00.003+08:00

location: home
mood: in denial
listening to: -embedded video-

i really should stop trying to write a diary, my handwriting makes me cringe. school was really tedious today. is it really bad of me to already feel like cutting class in week 2? i really don't think i've absorbed anything from the lecture today, and my notes keep getting cut off so they're pretty useless.

i feel so distracted all the time. sigh. i don't feel like me. or maybe i do. i don't really know. what does "me" feels like?

♥♥♥

empty space before my eyes

thousand thoughts run through my mind

rushing, blurring, meshing, melding

out of focus, scattered all over

dwelling on the fancy prose

try to fill the empty host

obsession brings but flights of fancy

but still of the whimsy i can't let go

anxiety

2010-01-20T21:53:00.001+08:00

location: home

mood: jumbled & messy

listening to: muse

alarming depths

2010-01-18T23:25:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: agitated

listening to: nothing

violent, brilliant, fiery destruction

bursts, spurts, spasms and seizures

too fast to catch, dizzy and faint

chaos in a kaleidoscope

deafening silence, melting rainbows

light so dark, freezing burn

fire branded on to lids, stinging, burning, soothing pain

lost in the mind, confused and clear

blurry, hazy, misty fear

spiral, spiral, swirling terror

trying to grip, slipping away, falling into insanity

exasperation

2010-01-18T22:30:00.004+08:00

location: home

mood: distracted

listening to: various background noises

i don't believe this. i always knew my math was bad, but really this is ridiculous! i remember counting the days twice and feeling puzzled about the weird schedule, twice! i counted twice! how could i've been wrong? and i didn't even realise it till a week later? i wonder what would have happened if i didn't glance at the date last night. what the hell is wrong with me? sigh. too much, too much, i'm running out of space.

inquisitive

2010-01-15T22:47:00.003+08:00

location: home

mood: undetermined

listening to: creaking hinges

dreams,

a wisp of smoke, flickering light

incoherent scenes, burst of brilliant hues

flighty fun, oppressing dark

haunting trill in hazy minds

dreams,

a silent wish, subconscious hope

details overload, pushed to the back

spilling over, uncontrolled stream

late-night showings freely flows

dreams,

confused jumble, mess of tangles

nightly viewings, repeat warnings

terror most deep, inability spills

silent screams wake the fear

dreams,

immaterial strands, hard to hold on

slipping through, gaps and cracks

numb yet sharp, disconcerting tug

so i ask

"what exactly, are dreams made of?"

and the world came crashing down

2010-01-14T22:12:00.003+08:00

location: home
mood: introspective
listening to: silence

i stumble through an aimless haze

searching, reaching through an intangible maze

round and round i turn in circles

always ending in the same sad place

i watch as the seconds passed

grains of sand through an hourglass

grow and bloom, wither and die

the same cycle repeats till the end of time

some nights i dream of laughter and joy, freedom and flight

some nights i wake haunted by terror and fear, blood and violence

and some nights i sleep like the dead, with nary a thought crossing my sleep laden mind

but always, always i lament the rising sun and how dawn brings with it, yet another aimless day

2010-01-13T22:30:00.002+08:00

location: home
mood: tired
listening to: whirling fan

i hate paper cuts. and i think i'm already spoiling my new bag(and ruining my shoulder) with all the junk i'm lugging around.

school sucked as usual. i feel like a loner all over again. i'm not sure if thats a good thing or not. probably both.

pms bloating is a nightmare.

my calves are aching but i have no idea why. maybe i'm not used to walking after lying in bed for 2months? damn i'm a pig.

i need to lose weight.

life is sad.

this post is really random.

new

2010-01-10T21:41:00.002+08:00

location: home

mood: sulky

listening to: radio playing sucky music from parent's room

i'm altering my entry format a little to make it look more like a journal because i'm too lazy to actually move over to livejournal haha that and trying to edit livejournal skins are a pain XP

oh i just discovered a new video sharing site, looks real good! lots of new shows, they actually have avatar already o.o online pirates are amazing. its loading really slow though, but video quality looks great from what i've seen so far, maybe i'll try again tmr. lousy connection always did get a little wonky at night -shrugs-

and i've better start adjusting my sleeping habits...i've gotten way too used to sleeping from 4am till noon. thank goodness all my classes this coming semester are in the afternoon. i think i'm just going to die if i have lessons at 8.30am on the first week. sigh, guess school's starting no matter how much i wish it wouldn't =( here's to me having to make yet another attempt at "befriending" new people =.= woohoo, sense my great enthusiasm. sigh.

2010-01-09T02:03:00.003+08:00

drab, dull, uninspiring

rewind, repeat, replay everyday

cacophony and rainbow explosions abound

yet shades of grey is all i see

colour my days with hues of melancholy

if that is the only way

to escape the grey

rae

2010-01-09T01:40:00.001+08:00

needs to lose weight

needs to get off her lazy ass and lose the damn freaking WEIGHT! =S

joys of retail therapy + good company

2010-01-08T00:38:00.004+08:00

spent the day shopping shopping shopping! went to ps first because i had cravings for pizza and the only pizza hut in town is at ps lol yumyum! pity they don't do stuff crust in small sizes so i had to settle for a personal pan =(

shopped around, bought underwear+shorts+pencil case+handphone pouch(kawaii!♥) headed over to daiso and stocked up on my charcoal mask ♥ bought 3tubes, hopefully they'll open a daiso in tampines by the time i need to stock up again XD i ♥ daiso

walked over to orchard after that, it was a beautiful day! ok that doesn't really have anything to do with it, we just needed to work off the cheese(and it wasn't really a beautiful day, it was drizzling). went exploring at orchard central. finally found the roof garden! had to climb lots of steps to reach it =S

went over to 313@somerset to check out the 4story forever21 and it was packed! spent 10mins queuing at the fitting rooms and ended up not buying anything =( headed to wisma after because 313 was boring and junn wanted to buy her shoes. she spent quite a while deciding which size to get so i took the chance to sit down and rest my feet haha

walked over to ion because she wanted to dinner at swensen's. and that's when everything went downhill =S first we couldn't find the escalator up to b1(we actually ended up on an escalator that sent us out of ion all together lol) and then we couldn't find swensen's after we finally got to b1 =( rahhh whats the deal with all the maze like shopping malls nowadays?! its killing my shopping buzz!! coupled with my total lack of navigational skills, i'm doomed to forever walk in circles T.T

ended up eating at food republic in wisma because we were fed up and it was already 9pm, way past dinner time =S

rushed back to orchard central before all the shops closed for junn to finally buy her backpack!

took 518 back and walked home. now my feet aches like ^%$!#@! sigh, old age is catching up with me =(

all in all it was a great day! didn't manage my new year shopping but it was still fun! i ♥ my new kawaii pencil case!

lackluster storytelling & generally poor manners

2010-01-07T00:30:00.006+08:00

finally caught avatar today! i think i must be one of the last people to do so , seems like its all everyone is talking about these days lol

so my thoughts on the movie, visually, it is undeniably stunning, definitely one of the best looking films i've ever seen, the character/creature designs were breathtaking. i still don't get whats all the fuss about the 3D though, it's still a great looking film in 2D -shrugs- i stand by my view that 3D is just a gimmick to make people part with their money. no wonder the film industry makes millions and billions from a single film these days, ticket prices have doubled =S

story wise, i thought it was just ok, pretty cliché and predictable?(ok maybe this is just because i read the outline on wiki before watching haha). same old story about morals, humanity and preserving mother nature blahblahblah, nothing we haven't seen before. but then again the script was written 15years ago, maybe it was pretty groundbreaking then, environmental issues weren't as popular those days.

cliché plot lines aside, its still an ok film. doesn't live up to all the hype, but still good. coupled with the stunning visuals, definitely worth a watch, just not so sure about the 3D ticket price...damn glasses were so heavy my ears hurt after wearing them through the 161mins =S

the one thing that bothers me is, it has been mentioned that avatar will be expanded into a trilogy if this first part is successful. so they are pretty much blatantly telling us that the sequels are not really necessary to complete the plot line, just thought they'd milk it for all its worth since people are dumb enough to keep shelling out money again and again. seriously we all know most movie franchises work this way, but did they have to be so blunt? honestly i thought it leaves a bad taste in the mouth when they say it like this, but i'm sure there'll still be tons of people flocking to the theaters, probably including me(though i'm definitely settling for 2D next time). what can i say? people are just suckers for hype.

♥♥♥

so thats all about the movie, now i'm gonna whine and moan about the abhorrent cinema manners(or lack thereof) of people nowadays. i haven't been so annoyed since the days of noisy burping uncles(refer to entry about my experience watching the omen couple of years back).

first, there were the late comers who come in after the show has already started and proceed to block everyone's view while they go slowly row by row looking for their seats. then there are the people who don't look for their seats and then disturb everyone else by having to move when the people(the latecomers) who are supposed to sit there comes in.

and then there are the annoying seat kickers(damn you whoever you are who sat behind me). and then there are the people who don't turn off/silent their phones, which of course started ringing in the middle of the show, for quite awhile i might add(for goodness sake if you're not going to silent your phone can you at least answer it fast when it starts ringing?), and then proceed to not even bother to whisper and cut the conversation short when they finally do pick up the phone.

lastly(and definitely not the least), there are the parents who bring their spawns from hell to the movies. honestly, if they're not old enough to know crying and screaming in public is not acceptable, they are not old enough to be let out in public, let alone a movie theater screening a 3hr long movie. first the kid was yakking away, loudly, throughout the show. and then start screaming through the damn climax(the fight scene was freaking 15mins long, ok i don't really know but it was pretty damn long, so u can imagine how excruciating it was) before the parents decide to get the hell out. have i mentioned how much i detest children? the sentiment just increased 2-fold =S

and the worse part? the latecomers/wrong seaters were right in front of me. seat kicker behind me. and ringing phone/screaming child beside me. now who the hell did i offend to deserve such luck after paying 11bucks for the damn ticket? i knew i had a bad feeling about the day =S usually i only encounter one if any of the above annoyances in the cinema, but all at once? and being freaking surrounded by them? someone must really hate me =(

fleeting

2010-01-05T00:09:00.003+08:00

looking, searching, stumbling by

elusive wisp, brush me by

bearing, wearing, tumbling down

molding clay, slip and crash

dimming, fading, wavering light

out of reach, flicker and die

2010-01-03T22:53:00.001+08:00

hmm i think its time i get myself a new diary

2010

2009-12-31T22:33:00.002+08:00

at the stroke of midnight

fresh, new, unknown

for better or for worse

the dawn of a new year waits

slipping by...

2009-12-30T23:15:00.004+08:00

wasted a good portion of the day away again because i had to go down and pay my school fees =S and guess what? because there were too many people waiting, there was actually someone collecting all the cheques at the door so we don't have to queue. so basically i was done in 2seconds =.= 3+hours of travelling time all to spend 2seconds handing in the cheque grrrrrrrrr

ok i really shouldn't waste more time complaining because its not like its the first time and not like i wasn't expecting it. but still, a little irrational part of me would have rather queued for awhile just so i'll feel like i was actually doing something there you know? rah, now i'm babbling =S

♥♥♥

the year is once again coming to a close. i'm bewildered to realise that we're actually already a whole decade into the new millennium. where did all the time go? it amazes me that i'm actually an 80's(albeit very late at the end of '89) baby, it sounds so far away, like a dusty thing locked away and long forgotten.

looking around now, i'm astonished by how much has changed. i remember the days of windows 95(i think i remember using the version before too but i can't recall the name now) and dial-up modems, ladybug picture books and days in primary school where the teachers will always call me by the wrong names because they have taught both my sisters before me(hell i even remember my taf club days lol), the funny indian uncle at the ma ma shop opposite my block trying to speak mandarin to me and tricking me into thinking he's giving me a huge discount by selling me a packet of sour plums for $2 instead of $20 lol

sure, now we have fast broadband internet and all the fancy gadgets like the endless new generations of ipods(funny how generations change every year now) and touchscreen mobile phones(my first phone was actually a free gift from kfc if anyone still remember the ad XD). but are things better now?

are all these memories of yesteryear fond now because things were simpler and happier then or is it just because they were tinged with childish innocence and seen through rose-tinted glasses?

i read a funny article in the papers today, apparently people are troubled that they can't come up with a name to call the last decade(50's, 60's etc), after all they can hardly call it the zeros lol but more than the lack of name, i can hardly think of what represents the last decade. you know how when you think of a certain time period there is always a mental image that come to mind? something representative of the time? it could be the ridiculous fashion trends or the popular musical style or maybe just a particularly memorable major event? what then, is the thing to remember the last decade by? it seems like the fashion now is all about being "retro", borrowing elements from years past, music is one big mess of similar sounding tunes(in fact there have been so many law suits on creative plagiarism its depressing) and the most memorable event i can think of off the top of my head is 911, hardly anything worth celebrating.

prophesies(or maybe just overly imaginative people with access to the internet) says that the world is coming to an end in 2012. somehow it seems more and more probable everyday when i browse through the news. it seems like the papers is filled with pages and pages of different permutations terror attacks, natural disasters, authority screw-ups, entertainment scandals and various other depressing news. maybe it is time to start off on a clean slate.

♥♥♥

tick tock, tick tock

pendulum swings, shifting sands

grain by grain, swish by gentle swish

like sand trickling through desperate fingers clenched

rae

2009-12-28T17:21:00.002+08:00

has a new found love for muse and is continuously confounded by how some insist on referring to people as that instead of who, didn't we cover this in primary school already?

♥♥♥

i stare blankly into the distance

fuzzy, blurry, messy

sometimes it seems as though an end is in sight

fuzzy, blurry, messy

i stare blankly into the distance

tis the season to be jolly?

2009-12-26T14:09:00.002+08:00

dull dull drone, endless night

silence rings, strangely bright

how did you spend your christmas?

♥♥♥

cracks

2009-12-25T00:49:00.002+08:00

silver glass, twin sight shows

crumbling facade, heavy blows

change in sight, acceptance slows

open wide, dread comes close

sour

2009-12-23T22:04:00.003+08:00

packed. oppressive. choke. stink.

push and shove, graceless swine

short, short fuse

brimming woe

roly-poly, hardly jolly

♥♥♥

went out for afternoon tea with sis(s) today @ mandarin oriental axis bar. tea and trays full of cakes and sweets.

chirstmas, christmas, how i hate christmas shopping

rain

2009-12-21T23:43:00.004+08:00

pitter-patter pitter-patter

howling winds and swaying trees

entrancing sight of swirling leaves

angels cry as heaven roars

i stare transfixed, chaos unleashed

pitter-patter pitter-patter

teardrops dancing in the wind

2009-12-21T14:02:00.003+08:00

waft of aroma, fresh brew blows

bittersweet and tart, dark velvet luxe

saccharine sweet, cotton fluff

heady blend, delightful rush

i'm in the mood for coffee and dessert!♥

mind games

2009-12-20T23:14:00.002+08:00

burn, sting, flaring bright

flash of thought, blinding light

ache, touch, frustrating lack

daydreams, fantasies, crushing reality

real, imagined, blurring lines

choking, closing, claustrophobic high

too much, too little, empty and dry

what is, what's not, confusing lost

thick, viscous, streaming vermilion

spiraling, spiraling, endless fall

fears, foolish, real and dear

anxious, thumping, shrieking drawl

clearly delusional, pitiful bawl

♥♥♥

pardon the word vomit, i'm in a peculiar mood.

2009-12-20T19:23:00.003+08:00

words across a screen

passion and spark unknown to thee

dreams and longings of vision illusionary

flames doused and ashes blown

away in the flighty breeze

2009-12-20T01:33:00.002+08:00

had dinner with cousins tonight, jap buffet @ miramar hotel. food was great! we had 4 plates of sashimi(fresh and yummy) my tummy is so bloated it feels like its going to burst anytime lol

sis's visa is ready, probably going back to london end of next week =(

belated birthday celebration + x'mas gift exchange with hjsmx!

2009-12-18T15:19:00.002+08:00

i was supposed to meet hj at 12pm yesterday but as usual i got held up trying to find something to wear lol i was adamant that i wanted to wear my new shoes and silly me insisted on having a christmas theme so i couldn't find anything that matched and ended up being spectacularly late(even moreso than usual) and ignoring my own theme(i gave up and wore a floral dress that is not christmasy at all in the end XD)

finally met up with everyone about 1+hr after the appointed time =X and made our way to the first destination. we were supposed to go check out the new ksuite @ iluma, but what dastardly luck, their sound system was down so we had to have a last minute change of plans. luckily thats not the only ktv place in bugis so we just crossed a street and went topone instead =D

spent the afternoon singsingsingsinging~ it was fun even though we were all horribly out of tune haha we sang 12 days of christmas in celebration of the holidays but the version there isn't the one i'm used to and i couldn't sing my "5 golden rings~~~" part properly =S and their auld lang syne had completely different lyrics so i didn't know how to sing that lol

had dinner at nydc in parco after our ktv session and had our gift exchange =D well hjmxw had our gift exchange, js didn't get anything for the exchange so he was excluded lol if i knew he wasn't participating i wouldn't have had to search so hard for a unisex gift =S oh well.

got a huge birthday present as well, thanks hjsmx i really lovelovelovelove♥♥♥ my present! ^^

farewell, teenage years

2009-12-13T23:15:00.003+08:00

i can't call myself a teenager anymore =( i'm devastated. -cries in a corner- i'm consoling myself by binging on my birthday cake. so now i'm going to be old AND fat. damn.

♥♥♥

went out with sis today, went shopping at iluma(i got a new bag for school♥). lunched at manhattan fish market, grilled seafood platter for 2(yummy!)

caught the princess and the frog at filmgarde. its really good! the magic of disney fairytales *sigh* i can't wait for rapunzel next year(hopefully)!

♥♥♥

Hoppípolla - Sigur Rós

i love this song, its icelandic so i don't actually understand the lyrics, but whats a little thing like language in the face of good music? =D there's always google translate!

the end of adolescence

2009-12-13T01:02:00.002+08:00

the dreaded big 2-0 is here =(

shoe frenzy

2009-12-08T22:28:00.003+08:00

went shopping today and bought a pair of ridiculously high(4") brown patent leather peeptoe booties. i'll probably fall flat on my face/break my ankle if i ever wear it out. but......its so gorgeous!♥♥♥♥♥

2009-12-03T20:46:00.002+08:00

i passed! i passed i passed i PASSED!

i believe in miracles now!

results

2009-12-02T21:17:00.000+08:00

tomorrow >.<

twilight? bleah xp

2009-11-29T22:26:00.005+08:00

i don't know what came over me, i must have been bored out of my mind and totally not thinking, because i actually attempted to rewatch twilight yesterday x_x and well, if its possible, i think it was actually worse than i remembered lol basically i just fast forwarded through to the more important bits because it was just too painful to watch in full.

maybe i was looking to reinforce my decision to not watch new moon(it'll be like throwing money and time down the drain), because the trailer actually looked halfway interesting, (if you ignore the non-existence acting that is) and it worked perfectly, less than 5mins into twilight and i remembered why i thought the whole thing was a big waste of time.

i am rereading the books though, its a little ridiculous and totally sappy+shallow but its a nice fantasy when you're just picturing it in your head and not looking at real people actually trying(and failing. miserably.) to bring the story to life. and it helps pass the time. but i couldn't help skipping towards the end though, it was getting too boring...now i'm off to skip through most of book 2! =D

♥♥♥

went out for dinner today, had yummy fish head curry and fried chicken and veggies.

thats basically it. my days are really boring now, and guess what? i'm throughly enjoying it XD

dreams

2009-11-27T21:04:00.002+08:00

i've been having the weirdest dreams lately...last night i dreamt that for some reason or another i was doing some weird dance with a group of people with big flags and wooden swords at the rooftop of some hdb building...for national day o.O and then it suddenly cut to another dream where i was having an interview of some kind(i think it was for my university application but weirdly enough is taking place at my secondary school) and the passing criteria was how good i was at singing the contract(don't ask why there is a contract because i have no idea).

totally random and weird lol

but its better than those dreams where i keep trying to wake up but just can't. its a really peculiar feeling, i can feel my body lying on the bed still, could almost see my blanket covering my face, but i was walking around doing stuff all the while in my dream trying to figure out if i'm really dreaming or have i finally succeeded in waking up. and when i decided that i am dreaming, i would try to wake up again and again but i'll keep waking up to different dreams, and it'll keep repeating again and again until i get so confused i'm not really sure that i'm awake when i actually do really wake up o.o

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anyway, went shopping with sis today, bought some stuff, got caught in the rain and had prata for lunch!

that about sums up my day.

tata ~